Recently my love found this old blog post….
I found the end to be absolutely inspiring and driving.
I never had the desire to see if there’s another “center”….And one day I had the fear that maybe there was something else, just because the center I knew was…all I knew.
But, my fears were self-made…Not based on a single grain of fact.
You and I are it.
I am supposed to be with you, and it’s never been so clear.
Things often aren’t clear until you truly almost lose them.
….or lose them completely.
Here’s to the future. Our love.
Viva la Vida? Yes.
and you.
ohh, what to say?
we’re like.. oranges.
sweet, juicy, and full of zesty-goodness.
i’d like to think that there is a destiny, and by way of
broken hearts and a few passionate love songs,
we were brought together.
all of the arguments and fiery debates drew us together.
each favorite tune and lovely melody opened another door in our friendship.
it’s like you were in the center of a maze, and i was on the outside.
you were throwing out these gifts, shouting sweets words, and occasionally
giving hints on how to discover the heart of the maze.
i often thought i was near the core, when i hit a dead end.
you waited so patiently, as i found my way out, and got back on track.
when i found you, we were in complete bliss. it was destiny.
at some point, i thought i was being suffocated by this sheer bliss,
but it was just a bit of claustrophobia.
the center was something completely new to me,
i experience a bit of shell shock.
i tried to find my way out, thinking there must be another center somewhere.
i was wrong.
i knew all along that i was in the right place, where destiny wanted me.
sometimes i wonder if you’re eying the exit.
what if you have that wandering feeling, too? what if you think there’s another center,
another blissful heart?
it scares me.
what if another girl finds our center of blissful happiness?
she may just wander in, not really sure where she was headed.
she may think she found her destiny.
you’ll catch her eye, she’ll catch yours.. and that spark will ignite.
that tiny spark.
a spark is all that is necessary to burn down a house.
with the right environment and careless supervision,
total destruction may occur.
desolation and heartache will invade, absolute dread.
it’s what i fear the most.
so, here i am at the very core. the very center of what makes the world seem a little brighter,
of what makes my cheeks hurt from smiling too much.
i am where my heart wants to be. it’s where i feel at home.
it’s like a natural high.
the one thing that can help me fall asleep at night, or inject me with insomnia.
i’ve always heard others claim, “he’s my other half!” “soandso really completes me!” “we are meant to be!”
and i would chuckle a little bit.
i’ve always doubted love. i never understood its basis or structure.
it’s not until you really taste it.. the first time you are completely immersed in it, that you think,
“hey, this is kind of perfect.”
